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… make me realize that I have a lot of things to be grateful for.

The past few days have been hell for me. I cannot tolerate incompetence and what happened was in my mind the height of incompetence. But, I’ve decided not to dwell on that.

I realized who my friends are at work. They came out to support me and listen to my caterwauling. Without any prodding from me, they have offered to help me out and prepare me for a new career path. I now have three guys who have told me that they will be my coach and trainer for acquiring this new skill. All that without any payment in return for the time and effort that they will spend on me. Makes me a firm believer in reaping what you sow. I’ve always maintained that the universe will take care of me as long as I do what is right and good.

The thing that devastates me with this situation may be the fact that the offers came from people who I didn’t expect to step up. (Well, except for one who has offered help from way back.) The ones who I thought would step up for me all crumpled in the sidelines. Each busy with their own personal agendas and stirring more intrigue. I guess they helped me in their own way with the moral support and all. Maybe I just expected more than they were ready to give me.

I never thought that I would show my anger in such a public manner. It just made me feel violated and worthless. Despite the fact that I have poured heart and soul into doing my best, I’m being trampled all over. I can’t play this game anymore and I don’t like the person that I am becoming.

Oh well, I still have the energy to smile. Although it’s a put on according to my kumpare.